Hello Beautiful,
Has fear ever stopped you from doing something? Is there anything that really, really scares you?
I have made more than a few choices in my life based on fear and I have to tell you that ultimately (and in hindsight, which is always a much better view) they have never turned out to be in my best interest. I could beat myself up and live with a whole lot of regrets, OR I could try to face my fears and push myself forward, in the direction of my dreams. That sounds a bit better don’t you think?
Overcoming a particular fear is how I got the bright idea of signing myself up for a triathlon. I wanted to do the mini one, the Sprint, but being the procrastinator that I am, by the time I went to sign up the Sprint was already sold out and only the Olympic triathlon was still available. (That requires a one mile ocean swim, yikes!)
Well I had already told everyone and their brother that I was doing a triathlon. I find this a helpful way to hold myself accountable and force myself into actually doing what I plan… So not signing up was not an option. Now I’m all signed up for the Malibu Nautica Triathlon. Exciting!
I have always considered myself a strong swimmer, I grew up on an island for pete sake. As it turns out I’m not as good of a swimmer as I had thought. I think that when I was younger I was just more fearless and when you believe you can do a thing, of course you can. Well I am no longer fearless, and after nearly drowning in the ocean last year I have developed a particularly intense fear of being too far from shore.
This has definitely hindered my surfing and my overall enjoyment of being in the ocean.
I have been running, riding my bike and working out since January but had yet to actually get into the water. That is until yesterday. As fate would have it I met a fabulous woman at the beach last weekend who is a triathlete and she offered to swim with me. (Bow to the ground in gratitude to you Rosalie:)
Yesterday was my first day swimming. I showed up at the beach, put on my wetsuit and headed for the surf. Luckily the waves weren’t too big, so swimming out was not a problem; that is until I made it past the break and looked at the Oh so distant shore! Panic. Overcome with that primal, irrational fear. I say irrational because I was actually fine. And yet I felt afraid, really afraid and I said so. I was hoping that I wouldn’t freak my new swimming friend out too much, but I was scared and I just had to say so out loud. Rosalie being the goddess that she is was so nurturing. She said “let’s swim ten strokes then check in, ten strokes and check in”. That seemed manageable and sure enough I went a decent distance and made it back to shore without drowning.
I could have stopped there, but then again I would not have really overcome my fear so today we got in again, this time join by another fabulous woman.
Today it wasn’t as scary and I’m betting tomorrow will be even better, and by the time September rolls around and I have to swim for a mile with a bunch of crazy triathletes I will rock it.

Is there anything that you’ve wanted to do but haven’t because you’ve been afraid? I’m thinking that when we shine a little light into our dark corners they don’t seem so scary AND it feels really good to be understood and encouraged to move through our fears.
I would love to hear from you so please do share by leaving a comment.















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